Thoughts Upon Writing
Circa: Thirteen and a half billion years ago,
our indifferent universe banged a mighty spread and continues to expand at
quantum speed. Planet Earth was
formed four and a half billion years ago.
It took the crust one billion years to cool enough for life to
begin. Single life cells appeared
three and a half billion years ago.
Organisms appeared five hundred and seventy million years ago. And last
to appear, a meager quarter-of-a-million years ago, was Humankind.
Circa: Sumerian cuneiform writings, the
earliest known, emerged 5500 years ago.
Hammurabi set his laws in stone 4000 years ago and, soon after, the
Egyptian Book of the Dead was collated
from religious documents of the 18th dynasty. Culled from their oral traditions,
Homer’s Iliad and Odyssey were first inscribed 2800 years ago, followed by the
Pentateuch of the Torah 200 years later.
Before Homo sapiens wrote,
nature penned her chronicles with fossils, the silent, venerable hieroglyphics
of our planet. History came to
life only when it was written. As
an ephemeral millisecond tossed into a thirteen-and-a-half-billion-year
universe, how insignificant, how lost, how miniscule would we be without our
writings?
Why
do you write, inquires our ever-swelling
universe, when no one else but you can read? When you, endangered Homo sapiens, will
soon become extinct, your unconcerned universe will make atoms of your books,
electrons of your cyberspaces, and forever mute your megalomaniac cries. Abandon your prized alphabets then and
learn to live in peace before you self-destruct. Writing has enthralled you, fantasized your minds with
heavenly after-worlds, euphemized your delusions into holy beliefs, and
sundered you into inimical planetary tribes.
Without
letters how can a pencil titillate the stars, or thinking fingers stroke the
sky, or soaring spirits taunt infinity?
How can we explore our minds, revive our heritage, dream, believe,
worship, pray, make belief, pretend, and think without the written word? We are what we write for to write one must feel, and to feel one must live,
and to live one must discover and doubt.
But
then, why write a play when one cannot best Sophocles, a poem, when one cannot
top Homer or a novel, when one cannot outdo Cervantes. Why bother say anything when no idea
under the sun is new and all that can be said has been already said many a time
before?
We
write because we are in love with language; we covet it, hold it close to our
breasts, savor its warm, naked Logos throbbing with offerings, and its Eros,
fecund with pleasures. We write
because we like to wing expressions and release them into the seasons of
knowing that they may pollinate the open minds in the human garden. We write because we like to explore our
spiritual dimensions and collect our scattered identities, because we love our
quiet solitudes, because we cherish the rhythmic music of our hearts, and
because we resist death by leaving indelible marks on the sleepless eyes of
memory.
We
write because we love to hover in the skies of imagination with albatross
wings, because we wish to reorganize our chaotic world, because we aim to
redefine justice, because we want to entertain, explain, complain, inflame,
seduce, share, be heard, and because we like to array our beliefs in regal
garbs and our thoughts in skimpy miniskirts.
But
above all, we write for joy because in writing lurk both giving and
receiving. No one has ever written
who has not first received, and having humbly received, has gladly given.
There
is more love and truth in writing than in thinking or speaking. Our thoughts may delude us, our words
may belie us, but our writings are the windows of our souls through which we
view the world and through which we are forever viewed.
Do
we write to be read, to be published, to be famed—or do we write because we
need to, because we want to, and because we have to? Would we not rather recite our writings to a select few than
have numerous others read us in silence?
Is not writing another form of shared love? Are not writings our artistic renditions, our letters of
gratitude to God for having constituted us with the divine gift to create
something out of nothing, our passions to transform chaotic thoughts into orderly
beauty, and our desires to release our best feelings that they may dance to
life long after our own music has ceased?
We
ask who are we, what are we, where are we, and what will become of us? We ask, we reflect, we fear, we
prevail, we write, and then we die.
To write is to be brave—brave enough to skywalk, to suffer the fires of
freedom, to insist on joy, to overcome one’s autism, and to emerge from the
abyss of the unsaid, from the caverns of the unwritten, from the bunkers of
silence into the tempests of expression where lightning is a welcome light,
revered rather than feared.
We
write to sail beyond our small Cartesian world into mammoth worlds inhabited by
giant dreams. We write because we
need each other to circumvent nature’s cruel cunning and life’s stunning
storms. We write to trout up
time’s twirling torrents and surf down her tall waterfalls. We write to declare our ethos, to share
our pathos, and to flaunt our egos.
We write to bellow at the blaring sun:
“Cogito ergo sum,” I think therefore I am.
“Amo ergo sum,” I love therefore I am.
“Scribo ergo sum,” I write therefore I am.